I dont know what to do with myself.
Last night you asked me to give you one more chance.
I said "No I just dont feel that way anymore,"
I saw the pain cross your face like a shadow moving across the earth,
I felt bad but was forced to ignore it,
I couldnt let myself be hurt again.
Everyone came inside, including the one I loved now.
Though you didnt know it and neither did he,
You had set off a confusion in me.
I saw later in something youd written,
Youd been in love and probably still were,
But it was your secret and you wernt telling.
I felt so low, I had betrayed my freind whom I had loved,
You stirred feelings in me that caused
Confusion, chaos, crying, coldness,
Things that I didnt want to feel.
It sunk me into a depression that tempted me to break my vows.
I had vowed not to drink,
But I wanted to.
I had vowed not to cut,
But I wanted to.
I had vowed not to die of despair,
But I wanted to.
I had vowed I wouldnt let you hurt me again,
But I didnt know what to do.
So I cryed a little and died a little,
And asked my love for help.
I still dont know what I should do,
And I still dont know if I still love you.
All I know is my love for him is stronger,
It was born long ago.
Im sorry love, youll just have to let me go.
 
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