I can't hold on much longer, I'm loosing control
This sadness inside is eating me whole
I really want help but this is something no one can treat
There's really nothing I can do, this is something I can't defeat
I'm sitting here all alone letting it take over me
I just want to be happy again, how I used to be
My family is always yelling and it hurts me even more
Always throwing things, slamming doors
It makes me so upset that I have to cry
Writing my thoughts down wanting to die
If only people knew what happened at night
Trying to keep myself alive, trying to put up a fight
I'm lying in bed looking at the ceiling
Wondering why it's me that has to feel these feelings
I'm lost and so unloved inside
It hurts so bad i want to turn to suicide
But I'm not going to let it take over me
I'm going to let it go and let it be free
I don't know when that will be, but I'll keep trying to hold on
This won't be with me forever and it will soon be long gone.
 
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