It was a dream...
I should have known
The haze that surrounded me whenever you were near
The lack of ground beneath me as I danced in your arms
The impossibleness of it
Maybe it's my fault
For wanting it so badly
For allowing the dark corners of my heart to ache...
For reaching for something I know I'm not allowed to have
But it was incredibly tangible...
I touched, I tasted, I smelled...
And I felt so much
I'm returning to the darkness now
Returning to the numb, to the empty, to the ceaseless
I won't feel the pain when I awake
The light is already gone... it will not burn my eyes
Or pierce my soul
I will make it all disappear before I leave this cold, empty bed
I have no choice... it is my survival
It's the only way I can keep walking thru this life
But the smile I give will be false
The words I offer will be empty
And this heart will be but a shell
So as I push the blankets back I feel the change
My soul retreats defeated to it's barren, locked room
My heart beats one last time with yours
And as my mind erases all traces of this... of you
My tears dry... my eyes dim
I can now return to the painful comfort of nothing
And now the dream is gone
 
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