I'm supressing all my silent tears;
Promised to never repeat this story;
Never a soul to hear.
I wanna scream;
I wanna cry.
Punch my wall;
Curl up and hide.
Fall asleep, close my eyes
Wake up to realize;
Nothing ever happend at all.

I, I don't know.
I don't know what to make of this.
I surrendered my virginity;
Not my first kiss.
I don't understand how I repeated,
My mistake of being so niave.
Allowing my innocence to be cheated.
It's just so hard to believe.

I gave it up to a guy,
I barley even know.
By the age of fifteen years old.
Five year age gap, so illegal.
At the time I just couldnt say no;
My sences were so feeble.

Ashamed,
I know I made a huge mistake.
With no one else to blame,
except myself.
With no one to run to for help.
 
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