Is this the person I want to become?
Empty, Hallow, Alone?
My mind is tired.
I beg for rest
But still, you turn your back, rejected my pleads
I'm not strong enough.
I can't carry your world on my shoulders
I'm just a girl.
I can't keep pretending to handle things
I have no power
You tell me my eyes are beautiful, but why do you only notice them when I
cry?
I have the forbidden thoughts
They are buried under my smiles
But everyt ime it rains
The dirt is washed away
And I am exposed.
Stripped. Helpess. Hurt
I bite my lip in vain as the thoughts come rushing back
I dont love them.
Any of them.
And why should I?
But I do.
I forgive, and they think I forget
No.
I never forget.
And I have never forgotten.
And it will never stop hurting
You tell me my eyes are beautiful, but why do you only notice them when I
cry?
So.
I have hit a fork in the road
Two paths.
One, so colorful, blue skies and green trees.
Another, dark and lonley. Rotten thorns and hissing snakes
But I dont think of the journey.
Where does it lead?
One step into the darkness.
Another.
I'm already drowing.
One more step, just one more.
And I will save the ones I love.
I tell myself again and again.
I lift up my foot, knowing its the end.
I see them happy. They are with the blue skies and green trees.
I'm stuck in the darkness.
I'm the only one who seems to remember;
And I will never forget.
You say my eyes are beautiful, but why do you only notice them when I cry?
 
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