Have you ever felt
all alone and scared to be afraid?
Screaming at your pillow
and cutting as you layed?
Finding the meanings of what it is to be a teen,
finding out no one cares
and pain is all you're feeling?
Have you ever felt like
you were never meant to be?
Looking in the mirror and
fright is all you see?
The days are getting old and
you're tired of the same things everyday.
Never laughing anymore, all jokes remain the same.
I wanted something more,
but you never gave in.
I wanted love, feelings and happiness
but it just wouldnt happen.
I tried to make you happy.
But you were left dissatisfied.
And even as i left you there,
i never heard you cry.
A reason to live was a reason to die.
I stayed here for him and he would just make me cry. Consequenses and
misinterpretations.
All my life was about perfection,
It's hard to make changes.
I fell apart. I fell beyond
what was known inside your head.
You never noticed if i was mad.
You just got caught up in what i said.
All the beauty was released,
all the sweetness i was born with,
all the nights we stayed up talking,
its something i will truely miss.
I would lock myself in my room
and scream to God to just shoot.
Waking up the next day,
"why didnt God take me away?"
The pain is like an illness
that never leaves my body, There is no medicine,
there is no cure, there is no therapy.
Why do i suffer? Why am i possesed?
What do you want from me?
I gave you my best.
You looked at me like a child,
but i am old and on my own.
I know you hate me, you're just that cold.
A life is supposed to be
happiness and gold.
A heart is supposed to be cherished,
not put on hold.
A life not worth living,
but i am still alive, even though i hate
what you do dad, you're the best thing in my life.



 
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