I can still smell you in the morning
Before I open my eyes
And my mind tricks me into believing
That we're still together
I try so hard to never open my eyes
To never face the reality that hurts so much
Sometimes when the wind blows the right way
I imagine that your hand is touching my cheek
Stroking it like you did when you kissed me
I try to hold on to that feeling
But when the wind dies down, it's gone
Just like you
I dream of you at night
And convince myself that you're beside me
I can feel your warmth, I can almost touch you
But then I realize that I'm still alone
And reaching for my cold pillow
And when I'm trying to fill the void
By reaching out to someone else
I try to pretend it's your hands caressing me
But their clumsy attempts
Could never compare to your skillful touch
I fantasize that one day everything will be right again
But then I open my eyes
And realize it's all a trick of the mind
 
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