The name gives it all away,
What more do you want me to say?
I’ve got nothing more to live for!
You’ve given me no choice
When you’ve taken away
The only thing I’ve got-
My voice.
I’ve got no soul
Just an endless black hole
Inside of these bones
Inside of broken and worthless me
So dead inside
With nowhere to hide
I’ve got nothing left
No friends equals no fun.
It sucks when you hate you
Even worse when others feel the same way, too.
All I’ve got is me
Worthless, puny me
If only I didn’t put up so many walls
These fake walls
That I have built around me
So that you can’t see
What a mess I am!
Constantly discredited
For all of those things I thought were great
For all of those poems I love to write
For all of those smiles
That I’ve given to the haters
To the hated.
You look at me and smile
But only when we’re making eye contact
Because when I’m not looking
You shoot me with tiny arrows
That everyone can see
Everyone but me
They don’t hurt until I find them
And that’s when it all soaks in
Like a blanket of ice
That they are that uncaring
That there isn’t more beneath their skins.
Pounding headaches occurring
Every time you walk by
Making my head spin off
Into a foreign place
So confusing
Yet so simple to everyone else
Everyone but me that is
I just make things
So complicated sometimes
Why can’t I ever just let them be?
I blame it all on you
And everyone else
When really it’s all my fault
I’m the one making my head hurt
I’m making my heart ache
And my hands shake.
What am I even talking about?
I don’t know pain
Or does anyone ever really know pain?
I just don’t know.

 
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