here with my dad again
and tonight we're playing the same game
he throws some words around
and a punch here and there
and i fall helplessly down

she says, some day im going to be so far away,
going to be alone,
than i won't feel anything
and you won't stop me from that
ill be more than a hop and skip away

i hold my voice in these days
they tell me its respect and curtiousy
it's pulling me away from what i believe
couple more inches, a few more miles

i throw myself at him
i tell myself that he means it when he says i'm beautiful
and i tell myself to forgive him when he makes a mistake
cause there i find love,
something that pulls me along,
when everyday is more of a struggle

so i close my eyes when you hurt me,
pretend it's not the reality,
you ask me whats wrong
like you dont understand,
like you don't already know
i bare the pain for an hour
i look at your eyes,
but i cant look into them
you look at me knowing i'm hurting
you pull me by the sleeve and hold onto me
i'm taking my last shallow breath

i tell myself i don't need them
i've found you,
i pray at night,
asking god each time,
whats a girl to do without a mother

i can't bare to look at her,
my insides tighten
and there i am,
on the tiled floor
more weak, and hes the only reason im not alone
 
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