Pitiful I am as I scream in your face
Weak and pathetic
Because I can never hurt you
The way that you hurt me
Can't leave the same bruises
The ones that start on my arm
And slowly seep into my heart
Pulsing at me, STOP THIS, STOP THIS!!
But I can't...
I break down everytime
At the sight of your tears
The sound of your apology
I know, I KNOW you're gonna do it again
I KNOW
I don't believe for a second that you're going to change
But I WANT to believe
So I give in
One more time
I lie to myself
To everyone else
Make up stories about the bruises
Or just laugh them off...
I'm such a klutz
I make it a joke
Cause I don't want anyone to know...
I let it happen
I don't leave, I don't call the police
Not out of fear... no not fear
Embarassment, shame... for me
For my KIDS
And pity... I DON'T want pity or sympathy
I did this... I let it happen... I let it go on
Don't feel sorry for me
I do it enough on my own
Don't help me... I should be doing it myself
Don't give me words of encouragement... I should have my own self
esteem
Don't comfort me... I don't deserve it
Just turn your head... walk away... pretend you didn't see me
And let me live in my own misery
 
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