I am trapped
In my mind
Endlessly thinking
Yet never speaking
Never processing a thought
Before a new one begins
And they are all bad
Twisted beyond belief
The next more outrageous
Then the first
Repeating continuously
And they all lead one way
Down
Further and further
From reality
Sucking me into a world
Plagued by hate and torment
Riddled with disgust
And for what
Another chance to beat myself up
I am stuck on repeat
And I need help
But who would want to
take me on
I am incorrigible
I will never change
I can not
The only thing I can do
Is make it
END
And so I will
I will take my poison
Sit back
And relish in the thought
That this is the last time
I will see
These images
Of you touching me
And close my eyes
Hoping I will have a childhood
Free from him
In the next life
I am doomed to live

 
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