I am nauseated
The pills churn in my stomach
While my head swims
All for the same emotion
Hate
Hate for him
Hate for myself
Of life
And that I crave death
How my body rejected
My son
Expelling his body forth
So many months sooner
Than ever planned
I felt him move
And squirm
He lived in me
And I for him
But that is over
I was abandoned
And he has left
Never to return
My love
The only love I felt
Gone
He would be in school by now
And I the proud mother
But the plans fell through
I am nothing
But a mere addict
Craving the one thing
I can not have
My flesh and blood
A son
So pure and true
Why did you leave
Am I not worthy
Have I failed you
I trusted
And was let down
The only way to see
Your beautiful face
Is through death
Therefore I have chosen to die
For you
Just as you died for me
Hopeful to meet you
Perhaps in another world
One without expectations
And true in heart
So as I die
Know it is all for you
My son

Casandra O’Brien

 
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