sit alone and cry
a solid tear falls from my eye
you have no idea
dont even try
to say you care

i got insomnia
from cutting in my sleep
so only an hour
for me please
my eyes twitch
caused by lack of sleep

i got chills
from constintly crying
i start to shake
as push the tears back
in the middle of class
so no one will ask

my home life
a circle of hate
my parents fight
every night
mainly over me
my mother
knew i was a mistake
my father
still denying
he ever wanted me
my siblings
claim im an outcast
i do not belong

i banish myself
to my room
every night
i dont want them to see
the cuts
they caused
the tears
they caused
the life
they killed

i dont think they know
how screwed up
they have made me
all they know
is that they hate me

sometimes
i wish
i had the guts
to end all the deadness
inside of me
show my parents
show my siblings
what they*re hatred
has done to me

but sometimes
i think
that maybe
to mean

 
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