My nights are filled with tears
anxiously sweating because of my fears
My eyes refuse to shut
Why did I have to be such a slut
All the what if's are driving me crazy
My mind is anything but lazy
I'm tired but I can't sleep
All I can do right now is weep
I can't live another hour like this
My old life is what I truely miss
Letters and words blur infront of me
A glance at my clock tells me its only three
Breathing is rythemed my body is itchy
If I dont get to sleep tomorrow I'll be pretty bitchy

My stomach is empty
I'm scared to eat
As i Hear my belly growl
I solemnly stare at my feet
If I eat I'll make myself sick
I cant have ice cream, not a single lick
Is it all mental or is there something really wrong
My head is pounding like when I hear church bells dong
What is becoming of me
I wish I could let this feeling be free
 
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