it's easy to strangle a thought,
you just ignore it,
and if you can't ignore it u lie and say everything is fine.
And when nobody's looking you cry your heart and soul out and beg it to
leave you alone,
and if it doesn't then you watch it slowly consume your soul until all you
are doing is living for people who think they know you.
And think they love you.
You'd be suprised, but that's what happens to people.
They want so badly not to hurt the people that have fooled themselves into
thinking that they know somebody.
So they give up all of themselves,
their life,
love,
soul,
heart
and breath
and they live no longer for themselves because they themselves are no
longer living.
You become nothing but a shadow, a memory of something long passed away.
You look through old photo albums and can only do it when nobody is
watching so they don’t see your tears.
Tears of rage at the people who made you lose it all,
tears of sorrow for the things you did and didn’t do
And tears of longing for times long past,
when everything was simple and you didn’t worry about the other people and
what they thought.
Longing for the times when you could do no wrong in peoples eyes.
And the hardest, saddest tears come when you relize that you could have made
the choice to keep yourself but you didn’t.
You cry hardest when nobody is home,
and when all you can see is everything you were and all you wish you could
be
and know you can’t be that one thing that you want most.
And you finish crying, and it all becomes a pattern until one day you get
tired of putting up with it.
Until you throw all the pain out the window and finally stand up to the
people that made you change and tell them that it stops here.
You may not be able to reverse what you’ve done,
You may not be able to go back,
But you can stop the changes and be who you want to be.
You don’t have to lose it all
You can make a stand
You can stay just the way you are now.
Follow your heart and do not become misguided.

 
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