I let my eyes and mind wander
I'm no longer listening to you
Because you mean nothing to me
And I've lost all feeling
Numb to you
I cannot cry
I'm drained of all tears
And when I'm in such despair
That i must
I find those few droplets
And let them form in my eyes
But they are never because of you
I loved you more than anything
you are my mom
That unique devotion between child and mother
But you have lost it all
for awhile I hated you
And you were lucky
Because at least I felt something for you
now, i feel nothing
And when you call,
Which is not often
I deal with you
your utter stupididty
still treating me as the little child
You lost so long ago
But I was never the child
YOU were the child
And at age three I was the adult
I took care of you
Dont you remember mom?
When you would send me to bed
So you could sneak out while I slept
Thinking I would never know
But I always did
Dont you remember mom?
When, while you were at a friend's
Getting high and having fun
There would be a tiny knock at the door
And to open it would reveal
A little white girl in her bedclothes
Desperatly searching for her mother
And there you were
Telling me to go home
Without a concern for my saftey
Because you were drunk
But dont worry
I dont hate you for it
But I dont love you either
And you question me on why
I never say I love you too
When you call and tell me you love me
But if you look back
And recall...
You know the answer
Dont you remember?



this is the first poem i ever wrote.just wanted to know what you think
 
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