All alone in my room as I lie here awake
The whole house is quiet. I know that it’s late.
I toss and I turn with my eyes closed tight.
I beg and I plead to fall asleep before light.
My body is ready for slumber again
But that’s when my mind always seems to kick in
I try to ignore all my thoughts as they race
I know I must sleep to keep a good pace
But lately I can’t keep my thoughts in control
Too much on my mind, my body and soul
I’ve just been betrayed by the love of my life
My heart hurts so bad, it’s been stabbed with a knife
My body is frozen with confusion and pain
How could he do this? Has he gone insane?
So sorry for all the mean things that he’s said
He knows he was wrong, he’d rather be dead
He held me so tight, in his arms it felt good
As he wept, he then told me, he’d do what he could
To take away all of my anger and pain
So that we would be joyful and happy again
He said that he needed some time to himself
To start a new job and a program to help
Then he told me he’d be home 2 to 3 times a week
He loves when we cuddle while we comfortably sleep
“This won’t be for long, I love you so much.
I need time to think and straighten myself up”
All I asked of him was not to lie anymore
Or make empty promises as he walks out the door
He swore on his son as he agreed to that
Then kissed me good-bye, said “I love you. Be right back”
5 hours had passed as I stared at the clock
And my eyes filled with tears and had horrible thoughts
I called him and said “ you promised you’d come home!”
Tears streaming down my face as I hung up the phone.
For I could not believe how quickly he had changed
Like Jekyll & Hyde, from sincere to insane
So confused and alone, I wanted to die
In my mind were all thoughts about suicide
Why did he bother to break down and cry?
To tell me he loves me, it’s nothing but lies
I ask myself who or what has he become?
He’s cold and so heartless I’m utterly stunned
Through good times and bad I’ve been by his side
To love and comfort him when he broke down and cried
Suddenly it seems that I’ve lost my place
In return for love & loyalty, I get slapped in the face
How quickly his actions have just changed our fate
I beg “Lord please help me get back my soul mate”
Then I fall to the floor as my legs give away
So weak and exhausted from crying all day
My heart feels just like it’s been turned inside out
Then ripped into shreds and thrown all about
I try to think back to what could I have done
To deserve this much pain, but I can’t think of one
We’ve all done things for which we regret
Without offering an apology at times, this I bet
But that doesn’t justify playing such games
As to break someone’s heart so badly, it’s maimed
Who is this person who did this to me?
I can’t find my true love. Where could he be?
He can’t be the one who just walked out that door
He must have been captured like a prisoner of war
For he could not hurt me or treat me this way
I know that he loves me through night and through day
Unlike this stranger, he’s caring and warm
So loving and kind, not sharp like a thorn
His love I can feel when he looks into my eyes
He surrenders his heart and doesn’t ask why
‘Cause our love is so strong, it runs deep from within
fighting through battles, our love always wins
There’s so much shock and disbelief on wear upon my face
As I lie awake I wonder how this stranger took his place


 
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