My heart is pounding, I cannot breathe
Hands are shaking, growing weak in the knees
My head is spinning so fast, like a top
I stand but then feel like I’m going to drop
My eyes start to sting and my stomach has turned
I don’t understand, I thought I had learned
How to forget all the pain that I was caused
Not think about him, take my life off of pause
It’s been quite a few weeks now, I’ve done real well
No tears have I cried, nor on the past do I dwell
So why should this moment, not be the same?
I was sure it’s my heart and soul, I reclaimed
But tonight I am lost, and the walls begin to breathe
Try to fight off the fear as my chest starts to heave
“No, this can’t happen, ‘cause I’m in control
You cannot take back my heart or my soul!”
But the more that I struggle and try to protest
The quicker I turn from content to distressed
I can’t figure out how this happened so fast
Sheer panic brought on by thoughts of the past
Unable to sleep, nor can I sit still
Becoming vulnerable, and losing my will
No stopping the tears that now spill from my eyes
Like rain pouring down from above, Heaven’s skies
From every direction my thoughts swiftly race
Trepidation takes over my essence in haste
To the angst that flows through me, I completely surrender
My heart is still broken and bruised, it’s so tender
Now worn out from crying, fatigue slowly creeps
I collapse from exhaustion, with no choice but to sleep

 
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