i know i'm not supposed to,
yet i do it all the same.
all this frustration,
this confustion
i can't deal with it today
not today, not ever
she tells me to find other ways,
to turn up the music and drowed out the days.
but its not enough i have to slit my pains away
i cry blood and this is so hard
i can't make it go away if i wanted to or not.
i hate me
i hate me for lying
i hate me for telling
sometimes i lie hear wishing my death would be near
i wish i could believe there is a god
so everything would be ok.
i wish i could go back and take it all away
i wish i never started this,
because now i cannot finish this.
blood,
it's you life, it's so needed and perfect,
i can take it away in a second.
i rip my skin and make it run down my arm
i watch it all slipping away,
life
 
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