I woke up today at 2 in the afternoon
I got out of my bed and walked around the room
As I looked around at the bottles and needles on the floor
I recapped the events of the night before
This isn’t even close to the first time my apartment has been in this state
But as I woke my “friends” up and made them leave they said “Hey the party
was great”
When everyone had left the apartment and I finally shut the door
I looked around at the filth, the cigarette butts on the floor
I sat down on the side of my bed and just began to cry
“If I don’t stop this” I told myself “pretty soon I’m gonna die”
I cried longer than I ever have before until the realization kicked in
I can’t describe how helpless I felt I don’t even know where to begin
I sobbed until there were no tears left apathy was all I could feel
I asked for a second chance and wished this just wasn’t real

I don’t know who I was talking to, because I’m not a Christian person you
see
All that holy mumbo-jumbo, it’s just not for a person like me
But something that day possessed me to take a walk just down the street
To a church on the corner of 1st and Main not knowing what I would see
So I left my house in a wife-beater, shorts, and ragged shoes
A cigarette in my mouth, I was going to pay my dues
After 22 years I figured I owed this God thing a try
So I took that life changing walk down the street, the whole time staring at
the sky
But little did I know it wasn’t the church itself that was hard to make it
to
It was the street filled with happy people that was emotionally a hard-to-do

But I made that faithful walk to the church, unclear why I was going there
I made it past the funny looks and the awe-filled people that stared
I walked up the flight of steps, and opened the old, squeaky door
I traveled the distance to the alter and dropped to the floor
“Here I am God” I said “piercings, tattoos and all”
It is becoming clearer now what brought me here, just a son answering his
call “I pray that you come into my life right now, because I
believe with all my heart”
That as many mistakes as I have made, even I deserve a second start
Thank you God for calling me to this church today
For this has affected my life in every possible way

I want to tell you here and now that no matter what you do,
If you follow your heart and listen to God, there is always forgiveness for
you
You may see yourself as a bad person, but God loves us because we are his
No matter whether you believe or not, the fact of the matter is
God created every one of us, knowing every move we would take
If he didn’t know we would mess up, he wouldn’t have made such things as
mistakes


 
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