He did'nt have a right...
A right to play with my head.
To play with my emotions.
He made me feel so good and so bad all at the same time.
I knew he hadn't been through the best times in his life.
I knew he had been hurt before and so have I...
So I wanted to help him even more.
I had so much feelings for him,
I even fell inlove with him.
And those feelings are still there.
But it doesn't seem to matter.
I didn't want to be like the rest of the people in his life and leave him.
I wanted to stay by him and be there for him.
I wanted to prove to him I wasn't going anywhere and I will always be there
for him.
But I just couldn't seem to get through to him.
I gave him so many chances and I made so many excusses for him.
When all I was doing was cheating myself.
Fooling myself to thinking there could actually be something.
He still doesn't seem to think he is hurting me.
He has a way to make it look like it's my fault I am hurting inside.
He is so mysterious and unpredictable.
I know he is just pretecting himself but I wonder why.
When I proved many times to him that I wouldn't do anything to hurt him.
He just can't seem believe me.
He always leaves me with unanswered questions and thoughts,
I know will never get answered because he will never be ready to explain.
I just wish things could be different.
But a wish is just a wish and not reality,
I just have to face up to the fact that my wish will never come true.
Because my wish would require a miracle by you.
 
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