Something inside me scratches to get out
Peeling off my flesh from the inside out
Leading my mind into denial
Forcing me to come out
Every time I hear my name I cringe
Every time I see a mirror I flinch
Self-hatred is the worst kind…
No matter how much reassurance I get
I can’t seem to forget
How fucked up I am.
I put up a front to get through the day
Every smile is a bold-faced lie
Make up excuses to get away
But I can’t get away from myself.
I can’t get away from the monster inside
Why can’t I just curl up and die?
No, I must stay together.
But how can I stay together when the people I love are pulling me apart?
Breaking my heart
I can’t even trust my own mind
It always seems I’m the next one in line
To be sedated
But I can’t wait any longer…
If I give you the gun
Will you blow me away?

 
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