Oh I thought I knew pain,
Thought I was immune,
But as I read your letter,
Another level rushes through me.

I thought we could surpass this,
You promised you wouldn’t hurt me,
Not again,
Not a third time.
But you’ve gone and done it again,
Inadavernatly.

I tell this to you
In such a way,
Because I do not find it possible
To face you then to say

"My gods how could you do this?
How could you promise you’d never leave me,
Then suggest a break?
How could you hurt me again,
Knowing full well I already hurt enough?
How could you kill me,
Readily plunging into my heart with your knife?
How can you betray me,
When, for you, I’d have given my life?
I loved you with all of my broken heart,
And though I love you still,
I do wonder now...
What will happen to me
If you go ahead with your plan?"

I love you damn it, don’t you see
With those words you’ve just spoken,
You’ve essentially murdered me.

I’m dying inside,
Once again,
Cursed to see you smile,
And know that I may not
Touch your sweet lips to mine.

Do what you will,
I no longer care.
Though it will destroy me,
I’ll come back eventually.
I’ll find someone else,
I’ll force my heart to go on.
I’ll live to love again.

But I’ll tell you just one thing,
I’ve a close confidant,
And to me she does confess,
That she hopes you wont abandon me,
Because she sees, not only, how much you mean to me,
But also how much I need you.

Though I will henceforth deny such accusations,
I’ll say it once for this end:
I love you so much,
And I’ll love you never again!


***Note: This poem was written TO my bf when he talked about taking a break
after breaking up to me twice prior to this, the break was merely suggested
because there is a slight age difference and we were getting flack from it,
this poem resolved the problem and made him change his mind. I wrote it in
poem because I couldnt stand to say it to him any other way.***
 
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