The black smears across my face
All the things that I want to say
They just disappear
I cry silently
My tears come down
I wipe at them
My make-up comes away
I can no longer hide
Who I am inside
My front is gone
My disguise wiped away
There’s black all over my hand
I long to say “Please help me”
But I can’t seem to get it out
I look in the mirror
And don’t recognize myself
Smeared black all over
Contrasting with my pale bloodless white skin
I run the water
And put it on my face
I rub the soap all over my skin
And scrub so hard it burns
Then I wash it all off
In the mirror I finally see myself
I’m not quite sure if I like what I see
Nothing but my cold pale bloodless self
I can not stand me
Whoever, whatever I am
I punch the mirror
Braking it into pieces
Then shelter myself as it cascades around me
Cutting me all over
Blood all over, pouring out

Then next morning when I get up
The mirror is replaced
I gaze into it longingly
Knowing not what the future will bring
But I put back on my make-up
My front
My disguise
All the black
That I think looks so nice
And say good-bye to myself

 
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