Heat the wax of a hollowed candle
Roll in petals of dried flowers
I’m the only thing you cannot handle
Yelling at me sickly for hours

Drops of candle wax
On the ground
Followed by blood drips
Yet to be found

A trail of tears
Appears to be dry
Silent prayers,
Why must I hide?

Unaware of the hurting
My mind makes me claim
As I slice away my feelings
And surrender my frame

It stops my thoughts for a second
Only to think about the scars
It stops my mind for a moment
To think about just how far

How far I should cut
How deep I should go
Why I do this to myself
Only I shall know

Feel my emotions as blurry
Angry music so loud
Sole of their shoes
I’m under the crowd

You say I am stressed
There’s something I missed
The slashes say depressed
What’s my purpose to exist?

I’ll never fit in
I’ve never been kissed
I’m not that thin
I cover my wrist

When my eyes are closed
What do you see?
The shadows I can’t
And what I could be?

Sitting on the floor
Leaned up against the bed
Hear a knock at the door
Forget what’s been said

Falling quickly threw sand
Take my hand
Stand in the middle
What our vision sees
Is of things so little

Count the dreams
In the great wide world
Woken up with screams
In the sheets twirled

You’ll see what I do
You’ll cry as I do
You’ll feel numb like I do
You’ll run when I do

Feeling cold and alone
Unheard cries, and late night shouts
Kept all but shown
Until suicide called, a way to get out

Don’t need someone to care
Just need someone to hear
Noticed my makeup smeared
Please stop calling weird

Taken to a hospital
Locked In behavioral health
Found people who relate
Found people who could help

I wanted to leave
This so called life
Get out of my head
To end this fight

Unaware of what I missed
The others like me
The help I could get
What life could be?

Took time to understand
Took time to comprehend
Saw possibilities expand
Made a few new friends

Look at what you do
Search for who you are
Take your time to go
Don’t miss what you don’t know
 
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