I sit here dwelling on memories
Because that's all I have these days
I have fading pictures and dulling visions
Of you're happy face
I remember you sitting behind my computer chair
Reading my poems on poetic times
I can tell you were bored of reading
But wanted you to read on cuz they were mine
I wanted you to be proud of me
That's why I am the way I am
Because I wanted to be just like you
You know, I was one of your biggest fans
When I knew you were coming, I was so excited
I strapped on my spikes and converses
And we'd have competions till 3 in the morning
To who see who knew the most curses
We'd laugh till we fell asleep
When you told me stories of your friends
I'd juss sit and admire your coolness
At one point, you were my best freind
I get lost in my thoughts
And sometimes don't wanna be found
I cry tears from my arms and legs
I cry without making a sound
At first I figured I wouldn't cut
But one thing lead to another
It's not over something little
I basically juss lost a brother
The blood drops accumulate
The dropps turned into streams
The streams turn into puddlez
And blood turns into badd dreams
I think about what his last thoughts were
And I'm not naeve enough to think I was the last person on his mind
But selfish enough to wish that I was
And god, I wish he hadn't left me behind
 
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