My heart is screaming out,
But my lips are sealed shut.
My tears are like unspoken words,
Pouring out when no one is around.
My life is dull and so depressing,
With all of these fake smiles.
When I come in and smile at them,
It’s so they cannot tell,
I'm dying to be gone.
I'm bleeding under my shirt.

I hide this truth behind my lies.
So that nobody will ever know,
I cry at night,
Yet I smile with every drop.
Every drop of my own blood,
From the arm that I have cut.

When people ask, "So how is life?"
I say it's pretty great.
Even though I should truthfully say
I hate it every day.

I feel so alone,
Even though I’m surrounded by people.
I feel so hurt,
Even though everyone thinks I'm okay.

Everyday, I wake up and remember how miserable I am.
That's the worst part about all this,
Waking up each morning whishing you weren't there.
Waking up each morning knowing no one cares.
Waking up each morning knowing you will be given those silent stares.
Waking up each morning knowing more people will laugh at me.
Waking up each morning knowing this is how it's always going to be.
Waking up each morning knowing you have to face another horrible day.

 
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