Without Holding Back
By: Crys
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You are my reason
My swan of never
You are my escape
My novacaine

I wish I could not tumble over myself
I'm no one today
And gone tomorrow
Come drink the wine, of my earthly sorrow.
I wish I could not tear myself apart

My tears fall like rain
Countless in number
My only moments with you
Are like this when I slumber

Rhythm is pointless
Rhyme is weak
When nothing hurts
I cannot speak

Peace will not come to this lonely heart
And my body aches in solitude
I can't forgive or forget the time
I spent suffering without you

Sometimes a someone is so hard to find
And I would do anything to be with you
And I would tear out my own heart if you would not have it
And I would eat my own soul if it wasn't your's

There are some things I can live without
But I want you to know, that I need you right now
Isolation has been my friend tonight and always
But I can't stand just having you out of reach

Purple velvet and red wine and black doves and bleeding roses and silk
butterflies and blue demons. I hate myself on a whim.

The spells miss me and I cannot return until all is well
It is not well with my soul
The religion lashes my back like Satin
And my friends are evil incarnated

When will the pain become bearable?
I cannot embrace my Night
He is not here
It is eternal unending day
and the Son burns my darkened eyes
I do not understand the concept of "Good"

I love the cold darkness
The stars look down on me with compassion
Yet I cry,and my tears freeze, and my soul with them
Someone stop the music

I am a jester, a fool, a madface
The strings that control me, aren't pulled
They lie on the floor
And I drag them around
The extra weight makes me cry when they laugh at me

I believe in Never
Nothing really matters anywhere at any given time at all
Faith helps to contort the truth into a smile
And so I hide Faith's contortions

I was brought into this world by:
A man named Hate
And Fear is my mother
And I am Lost.

 
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