I Can't belive I use to look up to you
You use to be my hero
I wanted to be just like you
Wanted to spend all my time with you
but I was young then
Couldn't know what hate was even if I wanted to
I didn't think a father could hate his children
the beings made from him
I was wrong
I got older
Understood what those beatings
and words ment
Then I started to feel the same way
towards you
I didn't want to
No, I wanted to be your little girl
Wanted to love you like all my friends loved their dads
Wanted to spend saturdays
out with you
I wanted to tell you everything
From boys to band
But you ruined that
took it away from me
Now I do spend time with you
Every night
Yelling and cussing
Throwing things back and forth
I cry over you ever night
Cry that I'd never get to tell you about my first kiss
Cry because I'd never be able to tell you about all the pain I have
inside
Cry because I could never tell you I sill dream we could be close and
you'd love me
Cry because I still dream that we could still share memories together
I cry because
Even though I deny loving you
I truly, deeply, do
 
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