an anesthetic...
a beautiful feeling
a wonderful numbing
and a daily comapssion
with my mentality crumbling
as i spiral downward
i see the pin-point at the bottom
its not that far away...
but whats down there?
but my mind ceases to slow
with my heart jumping up
with my body at flow
light as a feather
i lurk in my lair
as i weave through the particles
that fill empty air
my lungs intake dry air
as it flows down my throat
as it scratches the sides of my esophagus
i cough up my anesthetic...
back to my reality
i feel suddenly alive
and out of my dream
of that deadly ride
just another anesthetic
as i open my eyes
but the feeling comes back
and my feet bring me to rise
as i swiftly float to the bottle
that rests on my snowing television
as they slide down my throat
chased by a bottle of my captain
it all comes back in less than an hour
and in that hour that it wasnt there
i felt the agony
that began to stare.
into my eyes it passed
with nothing to block or scare it away
it sunk in my body
with an intention to stay.
and it did leave me alone again
inherently naming itself erratic
i pop a few more droogs
just another anesthetic...



 
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