I want you to know what resides in my soul
Because I can not let my hatred go untold.
You always say“I’m somber now”
And act like there is nothing to be worried about.
I know you’ll go back to drinking again
I know it now and I knew it then.
My heart rate quickens as I see you standing there
Supported by the door frame the smell of booze in your hair.

I remember as a child I would give into your lies,
I would let myself believe it was alright.
I hate the years I spent lying to the kids at school
And trying to act like at home it was all cool.
I hate the years I spent with my head in the sand
Like an ostrich I pretended it would be better again.

But now I hate you with every fiber of my being
My hatred has caused my heart to quicken it’s beating.
I stare at you as you stagger down the hall,
I stare at you and hope it won’t be long
Until you pass out again and I carry you to bed,
Then you can’t tell me it will all be right again.


 
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