Anger pumping through my veins
Feels like I'm hardly breathing
Thought I should explain because
I can't describe the feeling.
Hands presses against the table
Knuckles white as snow
Wondering when this feud will stop
How far that it will go.
Muscle not attached to bone
Actions thick as skin
Wanting to be all alone
Don't want to let you in.
I should make this right somehow
Accept the blame is mine
Not then, not now
Not this time.

Sickness in my stomach
Words inside my head
Not taking back the things i did
Right for what i said.
I never will be over it
I block the things you say
Silence will protect me
While I will the world away.
Life will always be unfair
But who is there to blame?
Hurt has changed me so i know
I'll never be the same.
I want to make this right somehow
Accepts the blame is mine
But not then, not now
Not this time.

Don't know when I haven't won
Or when to walk on by
Guilt reaches out to me
I see it's hands are tied.
Panic almost strangled me
Hands around my neck
Missing comfort like a friend
Excuses have me wrecked.
Running is the only choice
No time in day and night
In circles nowhere left to run
There is no wrong in right.
Can't bear to be hurt again
The pain is always mine
It was then. but not now
Not this time.

 
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