Wipe the crimson tears out your eyes
And realize I shouldn’t even try
This heart has just lost all of its desire
So let my nervousness kill while I over perspire
My preexisting sorrow and all this self hate has boiled down to a substance
I’m force to drink

So let me choke on it and be poisoned
Let this slow death liberate me enough to see the shit I shouldn’t even
take
See that you’re all the blame
The reason I’m here
The reason where the people lost all there hopes and dreams
And we are this substance forever coursing through me

So I’ll let you know what it feels like
Let you know how shitty this life has been made
Oh but don’t worry
Keep talking while I slip away
Overflowing the cups like cheap champagne were forced to drink
And spill on our dresses stained from previous activities

So let me get drunk on the bloody tears cascading from my eyes
Drink it and savor the taste as if it was red wine
And I’ll watch every moment while you’re poisoned with me
I am your conscious of this horrible up bring
Listen to my words
And be rid of this life
But no one will know that I am drugging you
They’ll all be unbeknownst to the actions I bring
Never knowing a god damn thing
Let me flood in all my lost desire

HURRY
HURRY
Before I expire
I am week past due
And all the good is gone
I’m in over my head never knowing I was doing you wrong
So break the mold I was forced in
I know not what I speak
And know nothing of what I am
I am half the person I want to be
Half of my own demands
So leave me here I know not what I see

So gouge out my eyes to this premeditating quarantine
The more I try the blacker vision gets
And the more this rope tightens around my neck
So don’t you fucking judge me
You don’t know shit!
And I don’t tell me to go kill myself since I’m some fucked up emo kid
Let my low self esteem be enough to show me who I am and prove to them I am
not like others

I am not some fake ass person on demand
I am what you hate
A poison to your plague
I shall never be the same
NEVER BE THE PERSON WHO HAS REGRET IN THERE EYES

I regret nothing of what commit
IT’S NOT SOME FUCKING LIE! AND YES I DON’T KNOW SHIT
But really…
Who in this world knows everything?
And who knows what’s good or bad or the reason I can never change me
So back the fuck off I know what I say
And that is to prove to you that I am not one of the same

 
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