Familiar Faces

I got off the phone last
Night and wondered,
What happened to
Having my familiar face
Around?
Having the one I
Loved with me all the time and
Always there for me
I allow my mind to wander,
To remember when
This whole crazy thing
First began

We met among my closest
Friends, other familiar faces
In a different growing crowd
My friends initiated, and
I guess yours agreed,
Because we seemed to
Float on air together
That night, the first
Time that we would be together,
The first of many enjoyable times
I think I fell hard for
That not-so-familiar face
That night in the
Hot, humid, sweaty air of
My school gym
Numbers were
Exchanged, along with promises to
Keep in touch

A month passed,
We were apart
I felt broken, cut in half
From my other side
I guess my numbers were
Lost during that time
And I've never felt so
Lonely in my life

Then the phone
Rang, and I could have
Cried out for joy
I knew then that we would
See each other's more-familiar faces
Again after that call

I brought a friend
And I saw the
Now-familiar face once again
We laughed and talked,
And I couldn't remember
A happier time

Then, the cruel waiting
Began all over and I was
Inward, depressed,
Lonely and broken
Another long, tired time when
I felt so alone I thought
There was no one that
Cared at all

Then, technology saved my
Very existence, providing my lonely
Tired soul with a familiar
Voice, a screen name popping
Up on my buddy list, and
Alarms going off all over my
Desktop, and I was happy again

I chatted with that
Familiar face until
My fingers were cramped from
Typing so fast, my cheeks hurt
From smiling so much, my
Head filled with the realization
That my familiar face was back and
I would see that familiar face again

We met again, this time
Alone, the two of us
Together again, like we
Had always been together
We talked and laughed like
Friends since toddler years
And I never wanted that
Familiar face to leave my side

The waiting was shorter
This time around, and
I heard from my familiar face
Sooner than I expected
We would meet again soon,
Since neither of us could
Stand it for too long
Without being together

Once again, it was
Just the two of us, on
A day that I will remember
Forever, and we couldn't
Remember a time that we had
Been apart

I heard the familiar voice
Very soon afterwards, and
We were to meet again
We would be together
Like it was meant to be, like
Best friends and more found in
A hot, dark crowd

My eyes lit up
Did I see a familiar face,
Or was it just me again?
No, it was familiar,
And my heart skipped
A beat once again
I moved closer to
The figure moving
Closer to me
I pushed through the
Growing crowd to
Find that familiar face

That day was full of firsts,
Memories I will hold in
My mind forever,
Memories I will
Never let go of

I thought I found my other half, I
Completed myself
I wasn't broken anymore
I had found the parts of me
That broke and replaced them
I had found my familiar face, or
Maybe, just maybe
I had found more than just a
Familiar face-
Maybe I had found a soul mate

After the phone conversation that
Ended our familiarity I
Am constantly reminded of that
Familiar face, the first I
Would have
The first to proclaim his
Love for me, the first to show
Any sort of affection
For me, the first
I would ever love myself

Why our familiarity ended
I do not understand, since
I still feel familiarity towards
My now un-familiar face
I wish he was still familiar,
But I guess he is
Happier this way

If only I didn't miss
My old familiar face so much
I would be able to be
Happy myself, but
I miss my familiar face
With more emotion than
You or anyone can
Even slightly imagine,
And the fact that it was
My choice to end our
Familiarity just makes
It harder to deal with

(a week after breaking things off, I found out that he had been cheating on
me with my best friend)

(3 months later)
I no longer miss the face I longed for, and I am now glad that I am single
again. I have met other people and it is nice to have no commitments made
prior to meeting these people. The person I longed for I realized was not
worthy of my affections, and I ended our relationship. I am glad to be free
of that good-for-nothing bastard, as he treated me like shit.

(almost 1 year later)
guess what? I met someone else, and I've been with him for over a month now.
He likes me for me, and he's not ugly and fat like that old one was. To my
knowledge, he hasn’t cheated on me with my best friend or hit on her. I'm
happy now. I ran into the old kid yesterday. I hate him. He didn't see me,
and I like it that way. I love ***** now, not him.

 
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