I never wanted this silence,
only wanted the solitude of my hatred,
but death came upon me so quickly,
only to cover my grave with the cold lies,
sweeping so swiftly like Lucifer's wings,
on the icy December night,
now so cold,
held together only with the memory's travelling through my head of my
life.

Then came the end so fast like there was no life to be lived,
these open atrocities pulling tearing at my tears,
only the ones that cant fall,
my hatred to strong to let me be weak in this time of need.

now Falling to bloody knees,
weak is my soul now crying,
I turn to say something but nothing not even a whimper that longs to be
released,
makes a sound.

My sorrow so strong it makes the fallen ones from hell shed there tears,
there burning faces now seeing memory's past,
being cast down from the holy place,
there emotions making me nauseous,
fading away into this pit of a mind.

These soulless creatures even show the emotion I cannot,
there words not understandable to human ears,
playing with my mind are the words they utter.

This desolate cold era we all live,
no remorse not even for ourselves when we are all weak,
no pain dances on this soul,
only my deep and never ending hatred,
feeling pitiless the only way I have ever felt.

So cold and alone now not even the demons feel the need to share my wake,
this hell of my own not hearing my voice,
can there only be this state of torture,
now watching my soul,
I see so many falling as if there souls had took a step towards there
emotions and gave in,
still I look on,
no emotions tend to break my darkness,
only my hatred which drives this depression deeper into a hole that will
never be able to be dug up.

Sadness now seems to overcome me even though I show no signs of giving in,
I have my own key to getting out of this depraved hell,
yet I still sit here awaiting the arrival of what will never come,
salvation is not a choice for me,
emotionless, after sadness I slumber,
in my own hell im standing now without a soul,
fading now loneliness overcomes,
broken, bleeding.

Death will only overcome those who are to weak to seek there hatred,
to those who have there only feeling of humanity with them will never leave
this atrocious plane of despair.

Never seeking light,
only the light will be shown to me,
my darkness now fading,
I have awaited this day,
we walked into the night,
goodbye,
he told me he came to bid me farewell,
please why cant you see that I have tryed,
never a tear,
never graced,
now and forever,
I cannot remain,
I have belonged to no one only a lost soul,
with nothing to live for,
screaming with raspy voice,
never the end been so near,
conclusion in depression,
they all came..
they all left, never there,
true pain now reigns
 
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