she never apologizes. she never explains.
she lives in her own broken heart.
she makes no excuses, and she doesn't forgive.
she lives all alone in the dark.
she arises each morning
just to wake up dead,
she lives to feel nothing;
just to wake up again
she breathes in and breathes out
inhaling the same stale air
her heart beats, and blood pumps
she lives each day but just doesn't care
her clock is ticking and time's running out
will she continue to hide alone in the dark?
her life is slipping and she's screaming her guts out
but everyone's deaf to what's in her heart
the blood continues to rush
and her mind is growing vain
but nothing can be said
she's a just slave to the blade
pathetic and selfish; just a stupid little whore
go ahead and just bleed it all away
your problems will haunt you just as before
because like ghosts, uninvited, they stay
"just shut up." she says to herself
put the thought to the back of her head
her mind is on emotional overload
and all she wants, is to feel again
despite her own warning
she lifts the razor to her skin
drowning in her own self-pity,
it's her blood she deserves to die in
she slashes it all away
and it feels good just to feel
the pain doesn't matter;
it just makes her more real
but the cutting isn't enough
and she knows just whats to do
she closes her eyes
as she salts her own wounds
she hairsprays each cut
neatly into place
it oozes with the blood
and now she's touching her face
but this still isn't helping
she's still cold to the outside
she grabs a spare lighter
she's gonna scream from the inside
she burns a hole into her body
gritting her teeth and clenching her fists
she digs her nails into her skin
feeling in itself is just too good to resist
the next morning she arises
just to wake up dead
still finds herself to be alive
she's breathing once again
second degree burns
remain singed in her arm
cuts lay deep in her flesh
she's run out of skin for new scars
she's a human being and an individual
she's a daughter and a best friend
she's a little sister and an aunt
she's a student and girlfriend
she's an idol and an artist
but her attempt at something more realistic
has added one more title to the list
she's just another stupid teenage statistic
a self-injurer for a little less than four years
and the scars just don't seem to fade
all because i chose to cheapen my life
for a five cent razor blade
 
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