I run into my room and slam the door
You ask me what my problem is
When all I’m doing is running away from yours
The yells and screams ring in my head
An ever-lasting echoe
I pull at my hair so the pain will distract me
From everything I know
I turn the music up louder so I don’t hear the hate
I wonder if this is what god made my fate
My dad leaves the house, it’s not worth it anymore
Suddenly everything good is not worth living for
I cry at night because I cannot scream
The broken home will haunt my dreams
I go to school, everyone wonders why
I always look like I wish to die
Did they ever think that maybe I did?
I hear them throwing things outside my room
A vase, a book, perhaps the broom
If I counted all the dents in the walls
I’d be occupied forever
My grades drop, my heart stops
They look for an explanation
But scientists coud not find out
What lights my motivations
Nothing seems fit to indulge in
The door knob shakes, they are so dumb
Mother tries to use a bobby pin
Déjà vu, I’ve gone so numb
I wish I knew why you hated me
Before I procede with my plan
Maybe I was a mistake
But you’ll never understand
When you see me hanging by a rope
My feet dangling above the ground
Maybe you’ll be happy I’m gone
I just hope you’re proud

 
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