The one who shattered my hate,
the shatter-er of all things I held close,
and yet somehow I felt like this thing,
needed to be rid of always,
but I always ran like a scared animal,
instincts I guess.

But I finally let down that wall,
and let it in,
maybe this will bring more pain?
All I know is that for the time being,
my hate has been set free,
the pain of infamy.

When I felt the weirdness,
that had never once been seen running throughout my soul,
I gripped for a breath,
to try and see what this scared, nervous feeling was,
and it was you.

I use to drown my mind in hate,
but when I'm with you it feels as if my hate,
has been changed in some way,
still this cold feeling creeps,
back and forth as if waiting on me to mess up,
but this feeling of scarcity has left me.

Inside my mind I wish for this feeling to never leave,
but I want my hate to be completely distinguished,
but I don't see that happening,
hopefully my wall comes completely down for you,
my trust is something to be desired,
and I'm sure you can gain it,
just never lie to me even when you think its going to cause something horrid
or pain,
I could never hurt someone like you.

Now our answers only lie in wait,
to be answered,
maybe this poem will be finished,
but I hope it is never finished and lasts like this throughout all
eternity,
the love isn't there yet,
because pain is the only thing Ive ever known,
maybe soon you can break free this most lonesome sorrow,
that beckons for me to run back,
and I refuse,
you can see that im mean,
and I hope you can forgive me for that,
but you will never see the hate through my eyes,
please release me.
If you do I can never forget you,
you've already shown me something no one else on earth has,
this feeling deep down when I see you,
like needles sticking my heart and my stomach flutters,
and it just feels like the joy is taunting me to release,
wishing you feel the same,
my only thought deranged,
why cant I see it like others see it,
im going to open to you,
and feel you take my heart out,
please don't smash it into the ground,
and make it any more scarred then it is already.

So on and on this poem will go until one day,
I feel sadness incur me to write,
hopefully that day will never come....
until then fare well...

And then it happened you screwed me over,
and thought I was yours never again,
will I let this plan set it,
I hate you I hope you die,
but this is all inside my mind,
its all anger and hatred,
you took my heart and stomped and spit on it,
I hate you,
more than anything,
I hate you and want you to die,
I hate you.
I hope your heart busts inside your chest the way mine felt when you did
this to me,
I hate you please just go away,
go away and never talk to me again,
I hate you,
I hope you burn in hell,
the way I was burnt inside because of this,
I hate you,
I cant hate you anymore,
your not even worthy of my hatred.
You are nothing to me more than the mere scum at the bottom of my shower
drain,
you are nothing,
you will never be nothing,
You will die and I hope i'm their to see you pass that frightened look
of a life ended,
such a fragile existence.

Well now we all know how this poem ended,
hoped everyone enjoyed it.
my love life...
 
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