I don’t want to chase a butterfly
Knowing it’s just a moth
And I don’t want to scream for help
Knowing I’m already lost

I guess I’m like a shakespear play
Like when you tell me I always amaze
Because you think I can find my way
But I can’t, I’m still in this maze

Isn’t it funny how you people look at me
And think I can accomplish anything
When my motivation is at a zero reading
Are my actions that decieving?

You don’t understand how my mind plays its games
The way it rewards itself, the way it shames
It’s so mature it’s almost hard to control
How it knows who I am, it knows my soul

You people think it’s hard for me to take the first step
You couldn’t be more wrong
It’s the journey that it represents, comes after it
A journey way too long
And the second step may not symbolize as much
But it’s just as painful, no doubts
Because I don’t have the inspiration to make such
Big decisions of this amount

I don’t want to relive the same story
Everytime, the same end
I don’t think I can take another repeat
Atleast not again

And if I give up on everything
Will you hang your heads
Just because you think I can’t
Take those first steps

Because in reality I can, damnit
Why don’t you realize
Why do you think my fire, unlit
Is such a big surprise?

Stop asking me why I didn’t hold on
To something that didn’t exist
I think you should just back off
Scratch that, I insist

So if I have no motivation
Don’t push me, I’ve got buttons
And if you touch the wrong one
I might not be so reluctant

 
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