I'm an emotional wreck
Thinking of every fucking thing I regret
Trying to fall in love again
but, first to come to mind was that love and hate blend
I'm stuck in the past were all that lurks is fear
Fear of my surroundings and that ever step I take steers...
steers me to a world of emotional break downs
And everything I try to escape is in one huge mound
I reach for a hand, but I feel nothing there
All I feel is the pain of my world and it's huge tear
I'm trying to find my belonging place
but, come to find all my work is a waste
Fuck everyone, I'm alone in my own world
And once I'm dead, I see no one being told
Who would care to know anyhow?
They didn't care then, what's the difference now?
Now that I think of it, there was a time when they all cared
The time in my life were there was nothing of to be scared
I had a boyfriend, and awesome friends
Then I got dumped and couldn't keep up with the trends
I hoped and wished and dreamed for my life back
But a world of happiness is what my life lacked
Why am I like this I think to myself?
Why so depressed with a heart to just melt,
Stupid habits, and bad qualities
left me with no friends and a horrible personality
My life went to hell when you said those words
My hopes and dreams became into nothing, but blurs
ha ha, but you never would have known
That because of what you did my name's now written on tombstone
Now it's pretty weird looking down at them
Thinking that she is now his precious gem
I want it to end the pain to drift away
I thought up there, there would be no pain, but in my heart it all stayed
I stand there silence w/ a tear stroll down my face
With that flashback of my fear, and to think, it's now been placed
My fear of being forgotten, betrayed, a waste of everyones time
I guess everyone was wrong, not everything would turn out fine
Suddenly a sensational touch I once had felt before
I open my eyes to see him kissing me more
I thought to myself Wow, what a dream come true!
But, then to open my eyes and look down seeing the words of my last poem,
I fear the thought, of ever loosing you
 
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