That feeling!

I have no choice but to give in,
I can't hold it all back any longer,
I know it will exist as a slip,
But I'm not able to be stronger.

I need to feel the control,
I need to feel the blade,
I need to reach my goal,
By engraving my god given name.

It gives me such a indescribably feeling,
When that blade touches my skin,
And I see my name in lights,
All over my torn red limb.

I can feel the throbbing begin,
Such intense pain!
This is what gets me back,
To the world of the sane.

But when I'm back in the real world,
I see how stupid I have been,
I now see what I have done,
And no longer know what it means.

 
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