What I’m afraid of most is that you’ll break my heart
Tear it to pieces and rip it apart
Stomp on it with your high heeled designer shoes
While your fabricated smiles is spread across your face
Leaving me sobbing in a incoherent place

I was a coward trying to hide behind myself from the start
In fear that someone would go and break my fragile heart
Because I know once it’s broken it will be impossible to fix
These fragments of it end up so jagged
And the pieces lodged in my throat make me sick

I try so desperately to put it back together
Crazy glue it, force it together and sew it but it falls apart in my hands
These pieces
These chunks ripped out from my soul
Leave me feeling erratic and disturbed
Unknown to this stranger that looks back into my face
This person who makes me ashamed of the things I’ve done these past days

I feel so inhuman
Feel so weak
Like my soul was ripped out and taken away from me
You took my heart
Took the happiness I had felt
Made me a monster and hate myself
But this endless self-loathing has made me despise this person that was
created from your beautiful lies

I love you
I need you
I will always be there
Don’t worry
Just call me
I’ll be there in a second I swear
You fill me, complete me
Make me feel whole

Too bad that’s how I felt
Thought you felt the same
Maybe we were in the same level but somehow you changed
I tried to call you as I began to fall apart
But all you did was reach in and rip out my aching heart



 
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