I have been given a gift
Wings to fly
Finally a reason
To not want to die
No more bleeding
And long sleeves
I have something now
Protecting me
You tell me to stop
You're oh so cruel
When you're scolding me
In the hallways at school
Because I'm flying now
And I'm never coming down
You can't catch me
I'll never be found
Take away my colors
And my happiness
Just so you feel better
And let me be depressed?
Let me fly as high as I can
Stop trying to take my wings
I'm soaring above the clouds
The world stopped moving
Maybe I've just gone crazy
I'm the cat whose mad
But I'd rather be happy
Than bleeding and sad
Things are spinning
And I laugh so hard
You want to take this from me?
Don't even start
Becuase you'll never grab it from my clutch
I love this drug way too much
And you can't take it from me
They say that they're worried
But what's to be worried of?
All I'm feeling is undying joy
And random bursts of love
I'm not dwelling on things
That make me want to cry
Don't take away my reason
For not wanting to die
Of course my friends help
And I love them to death
But there's only so much they can do
To keep me from a wreck
Life seems so funny
I'm what ever I want
So give me one good reason
To put it down and stop
My razors are put away
And the nousse is out the door
If that's not a good reason
Then I have nothing more
I love you all so dearly
And I know you think I've changed
But I'm still the same person
That had your back back in the day
I'd still give my life
If that's what you really want
I'd still take a bullet
Like it was nonchalant
But now I'm just happier
And I want you happy too
Can you just smile for me?
Because that's all I want you to do
I'm not telling you to light up
Or watch me as I smoke
I want you to laugh with me
At my stupid funny jokes
I want you to not leave me
Why must you give up?
Your boycotting won't work
I'm just not smart enough
I'm stubborn and hard headed
I'll do what I want and when
But don't tell me that my use
Is why we're not friends
If you're my true friend you'll look past it
You'd see it makes me smile
Maybe you'll get it and give in
But it may take a while
I'm not killing myself
I'm not dying
I'm just stopping the tears
No more crying
I'm not bleeding
And I'm not leaving
I'm just done with grieving
You say I've changed and that I'm gone
But that's because you're not holding on
I'm right here
I'm going nowhere
But I can't stop you
And it's simply not fair
I'm the same
Maybe you're the one who changed
I like being different
My old me is caged
So don't bloody up my wings
Becuase you think you know what's best
Follow the heart that lies
In my aching chest
I'm here and I'm staying
You're walking away
I love my drugs and they love me
They get me by the day
 
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