He sits and watches her sleep.
He holds his tears back trying not to weep.
He tells her all the things he wanted to say when she was awake
But some how when he opened his mouth from his mind it would dissipate.

“I’d love to tell you everything.
I’d love to tell you who I feel I am.
But all the love you have and the love I feel for you
Aren’t enough to cut me from her web.”

“She is my mother and even though my love for her has died
I can not let loose from these strings she tied.
I’ve had a spiritual awakening
And darling I really wish you knew
But due to this damage done by my mother
I can’t trust you completely like I wish I could.”

“I can tell it to my friends
And random people on the internet.
I’ve been preparing myself for months
But I can never manage to get my thoughts into my mouth.”

“I tried to write you a letter
But when I got to you I tore it up.
I almost asked a friend to tell you
But I think you deserve better then that too.”

“I’d love to be able to tell you
That I will never do speed again
But your love isn’t enough
To make this addiction end.”

“I hope that since I told you this
When you were fast asleep
It will make it easier to tell you
In the morning while we eat.”

He wiped a strand of hair away
So he could more clearly see her face.
As he tucked it behind her ear she opened her eye
And smiled passively.
 
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