I try to convince myself
I no longer need you
But the moment I tell you
and the words leave my lips
I know I've made a mistake.
I used to stay up all night
Thinking of the days we spent
Sitting, Laughing, Talking,
Making memories.
I stare at your face
In the pictures on my walls..
I remember the happier times
When neither of us knew
How much we meant to each other.
Those times on the phone
-We cared so much.
And yet, it surprises me..
The feelings haven't changed.
No, not how you think they have.
I still care..almost too much.
You should realize
I never want you to hurt.
I'd hate to see you feel any pain.
That's why I chose my words so carefully.
I still regret them.
You're what matters to me.
Holding hands..life was so perfect.
My dreams came true
I was over him
And dying to be with you.
I moved on from the worst thing to happen
Because you cared so much more.
You looked so innocent
Standing in the pouring rain
With me by your side.
I wish I would've had the courage
To be in that picture.
But I was such a coward.
I was almost too scared
To tell you how much I felt,
But on the ride home
I knew that something had to happen..
if it didn't...
Oh man, if it didn't..
I love how you made my friends hate me
It rocked.
I love how you held me
When I saw him..with her.
I love how I could hear your heartbeat
And feel every breath you took.
I love how you joke around
When really, you're dead serious.
I love how you NEVER listen to me
-I get sick of everyone doing what I say.
Nothing has changed, has it?
When we're together,
We're still young and naive.
Knowing that we can never happen
But dieing to try once more.
We're just...friends
And that's all we'll ever be
Because of my stupid comments
And how I can never see you.
I'd love to be with you
I really would,
But I know it can't happen..
I've messed it up too many times.
If I go down, I don't want to bring you down with me.
I hate myself for this-
For these goodbyes.
I wish the world would make sense
And I could finally make a decision
Based on how I felt,
Not how much time I had,
Not how others viewed it
Just me
And how I feel..
Just in case you never noticed
I still feel the same..
But, I guess we can be
..just friends

 
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