I no longer want to stay in this world so cold
As I slit my wrists to relieve some of the pain
I’m tired of the put downs that I have been told
All my efforts to avoid them have always been in vain

It always feels like I’m being gagged and choked
Because of this, I feel so pathetic, so damn weak
It seems that everyone is just always provoked
By the sound of my voice, every time I speak

As I lie in my bed, drenched in blood and tears
Waiting for someone to take me from this horrid place
Someone to just rid me of all my ghastly fears
And to put a smile on this teary, shattered face

It seems that nothing like that can ever transpire
It seems that I will never enjoy such a pleasant gratification
But this is my only, and my truly deepest desire
For all the torment that I’ve endured, there’s no justification

I have seen no sign that my pain will never even be eased
It seems that I will forever be in anguish, sorrow and grief
It seems that no matter what I do, nobody is happy until I’m deceased
So I’ll do them all a favor what makes them happy, and make my life brief

I see that I am futile, a waste of everyone’s time
I see that I have no use in anyone’s eyes
I see that I am rubbish, in everyone’s minds
I see that I’m an incompetent fool, who always sits and cries

Now I see that I’m nothing; I have no soul, no entity
So across my wrist, I leave a bloody and hateful gash
Because my life is just completely exhausted, I do not want to be
In a world that has always made me feel like trash

 
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