I woke up just in time to watch you walk away.
And as you disappeared, I wondered how I would tell you.
I had so much to chose from, but no method in mind.
I don't want to lose you, I wanted to say.
Because you amaze me.
You touch me in ways no one ever has.
And I think you're the first person I have ever loved without
reservations.
I worked for years, constructing walls I've never let anyone into.
There are people who think they've seen me, but no one has.
They've seen the carefully constructed facade I wear every day.
And in some situations, they've seen the ever so clever facade I wear
beneath that.
It's like a security system you think you've disarmed, only to
meet another brick wall.
And behind that, there is steel.
You're the first person I've let see me.
Your fingers touch me, and I know no pain.
You smile, and the world is right.
I didn't let you in, but you got there. Somehow, you got inside the
walls, and you brought them down.
Your laugh is like Novocaine, when you feel joy, I feel no pain.
I want to hold on to this feeling and never let go.
I am terrified of the words I want to say most.
"I love you enough to never let go."
I want to make you smile when you are sad.
I want to kiss away your tears and replace them with smiles.
I want to hold you when you're tired, and watch you drift away to
dreams.
I want to let you know you're the most amazing thing that's ever
happened to me.
I watch from heavy eyes as you rise from bed.
As you tiptoe away so as not to wake me.
I wonder if I look half as blissful as you do when you sleep.
When your face is relaxed and your breathing is even and your lips turn up
in a soft sleepy smile.
In my dreams, I will tell you.
I love you.
Before you, I never knew the meaning of love.
After you, there will never be another.
I will hold you tight and freeze you in this moment.
Your back, a silhouette against the open door.
I want to stop you, to tell you it can't wait another moment.
Freezeframe.
Your face stretched into a smile. Your eyes, lit up. Your knee, touching
mine.
Every simple thing.
And me, a girl in love.
 
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