I could never forget your skin
Smooth and embraced toward my own.
With a fine and graceful fire your burning
Skin created my own reckoning.
My was I imprudent.

I see this now, all too clever scheme of yours;
You believed in my own hell, one which did not exist.
Forcing my actions to become a selfish cause,
I believed you
And in you.

I felt my actions were misjudged
Brought in part of my condescending attitude
All of which created my own fear of loneliness
A world without you was a world without a soul
Or so you made it seem.

Of course I stared. Noticing my desperate measures.
I ended my trysts before they began
Knowing of my true loyalty...
I loved you.

Creeping through the night was
Ever wanted sin.
Causing my sweat to fall toward the mattress
As I screamed in ecstasy toward the ceiling
I knew it was you.
I held you again
Ravaged your skin for my own
Disguised fantasy.

After the time of not
Being truly separated
The excitement dissipated
Leaving my hidden body
From further reach.
I had to escape this turmoil
And bitter loathing.

Screaming my pain through written word
I realized the truth of an ended happening.
I am lost within my world
And still lost within your own...
I know you killed my heart
But as I breathe I know I am still alive.

In the night I gently breathe softer
Into one's ear,
"Goodnight my love, just breathe."
My final words of regret and shame
To an ended affair of pain
And distorted figures.
 
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