The words were heard
But not retained.
I could force myself to cry
And lie to up my spirits.
Vagueness and reality
Linger in my hallway
To remind my heart
Of how it has fallen
And will never regain strength
To succeed your pain.

Maybe this is ignorant
And bliss all at once
Or perhaps I am blinded
By how I was fooled
Into the trickery you fed
My eager senses
And bruised heart.
Was this your fault
All along?

Driving past your street
Stops my heart
Every single time.
Although this is not over
I feel the pain
Striking everyday.
This is unofficial, my dear
And it kills me, I'm so afraid.

I want to let go
Knowing we are both hurting
In our own idealistic way
But my mind is bandaging my heart
And telling me
To hold on
And give you one more chance.
A chance you don't deserve.

I will continue to force these tears
And confuse myself
Into believing my own lies
And deceit
So I can be safe from
The emotional beatings
You offer on a breakable
Plate of glass
That has been chipped once before.

I will never forgive myself
For forgiving you
For what you never did.
"This was all
My imagination..."
 
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