I havent really seen myself for sometime,
Maybe I was lost somewhere down the line,
I have so many questions,
Maybe Im just losing my mind.
If I was lost where did I go?
If a plant loses its roots how can it grow?
I reflect on my carelessness in the past,
At the time it didnt seem like things were moving so fast.
I can only guess my effect on the ones who hold me high,
Ive been too scared to tell them the facts so I lie,
Too much of a man to cry,
Too much of a hard-ass to die.
I think Im a good example, or at least I try,
I accompany my burdens with a heavy sigh.
I might be guilty of the drugs and drinking,
And doing things without thinking,
And I know this might sound sappy,
But, all Ive ever wanted to do was be happy.
Along the way I lost the me who always wore a true smile,
Now you only see a real one every once in awhile.
How can I smile when I feel like a screw up?
This past year I really feel like I grew up.
Into the man that Im going to be for years to come,
Maybe Ill be able to laugh at these years of being young and dumb.
But Im sad because I can never be what I was before,
Dont be upset, Im just cleaning out my closet before I shut the door.
 
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